Saturday, January 1, 2011

The Good, The Bad, and The Ugly

The Good of 2010:

Niall's so adorable, and so sweet, funny, and good-natured. It's wonderful seeing my bigger kids take care of their baby brother.

Colwyn has gotten into Harry Potter big time, and I love being able to share that with him.

The kids' birthday parties were all very successful.

Doug still has a job.

My immediate family (me, Doug, and the kids) are healthy.

The Bad of 2010:

My grandmother passed away right after Thanksgiving. We were close, she was a strong, steady presence in my life (she often lived with us). I always looked to her for advice on food, gardening, crafting. Her illness itself was traumatic, and we just miss her so much.

My mother's poor health has continued all year. At the beginning of 2010, we thought she'd be turning a corner soon. Her health still sucks, which severely exacerbates our personal conflicts.

We've been fighting an unfair foreclosure since early March. We've been unsure of where we'd be living in a month.. for ten months.

Due to several families' circumstances, our homeschool group has had a big drop-off in attendance.. and we've been struggling with feeling socially isolated all year.

Niall's birth was difficult and disappointing. I know this sounds petty, but it still weighs on me. The stress of our breastfeeding issues, giving up after a few months, the guilt, and the sadness that I'll never nurse another baby.

The unending sleep deprivation. For over four months now, Niall has woken up on average once every hour, all night long. I'm so, so tired.

My cousin was born with major health issues, mainly due to his mother's behavior while pregnant.

The Ugly of 2010:

Me. To cope with all this, I've been eating. I don't know how much I've gained, as the scale needs new batteries. I'm dreading weighing myself.

In short, 2010 has sucked. 2011 will be better.


  1. instead of weighing yourself, just start your healthy eating. It is only a number on the scale. You dont need that number to get you down or even to make you happy eventually. Just start taking care of yourself.. You had a rough year.. This year is a new start,,,

  2. Oh golly. I really feel for your sleep deprivation. I only had one baby (14 years ago), but he got me up for multiple feedings all night long for MONTHS. I felt physically ill, I was so tired. I think post-partum depression is just sleep deprivation! Best wishes on surviving this period!

  3. I just started following you, but I know where you are coming from. I am 26 and childless but I lead a pretty busy (full-time student, part-time retail associate, and an in between time jewelry designer and stressful life. I too turn to food to try and relieve the stress. I decided yesterday that I was going to start on a WW-ish program. I am going to start eating more healthily and being more active. I am 5ft 3in and I weigh 250lbs!!! I don't want to die either. I am going to print out your points pages and stay with in my 30 points/day as well as 60 mins of exercise. Keep the fight alive!!! WE can drop the weight and keep it off. 2011 is OUR year!!!

  4. good luck... i have been doing a ww ish program for almost two weeks. today i had a bit of a slip. But, it is a good program with flexibility. So, good luck to you..

  5. I just found you by seeking a way to go on weight watchers without paying and boy am I glad I did! Hang in there. I've been through some hard times for the past 7 months and have gained 15 pounds. I am determined to take them off before I return to work at the end of next month! Peace and blessings!

  6. Found you looking for WW info, too.

    Hope you are getting more sleep!

    I have 8 kids ages 9-27, homeschooled(ing) them all!

  7. Our heads were in the dirt at the end of 2010 as well. I lost my grandfather and we miscarried in September. Since then 20 lbs have been gained, but i'm not sure it is from eating. This year has started out a lot better, and i really think your 2011 will turn out fantastic!

    I found you on a WW quest of mine on the internet!! I saw your blog had changed so here I am! I want to sympathize with you, but most of all I want to help! I think I am going to follow you, and am hoping that you will do the same once we start up our weight loss journey along the way! I am studying nutrition and hope that I can help you get to your goal!